[ Honestly, he isn't entirely sure himself. Being emotional or reactive was not allowed when you were a priest, even more so when you're a black magic user. However, he felt he would explain what he did know, which was the reasons behind their decisions. ]

When the gods or God is upset or angry, which seemed like it was the case last month, it is often because the people have taken too much of their gifts or magic. It is a regular practice to make sacrifices to them to give back to the Earth, thus continuing the appropriate cycle.

[ Mahaad found that he could rationalize that but continued to think about what he was feeling. Why should he be angry? Wasn't it his job to adhere to Atem's will? Why be mad that he made the decision to do something so dangerous...

Even thinking about it was causing the lump in his throat and his cheeks to burn. ]

I am not certain. Last month, Atem was witness to some of my deeper memories, to the guilt I had felt. My true experience when his father passed and the night I wanted to take him, Mana and run. To save him from that life.

After that, we promised to always be honest with each other and not allow these things to happen again. I suppose that may be why I am so upset.

[ Also always having to...you know...shove any feeling down ever. ]